Turthfully I don't know. I'm no longer in school, I have a place of my own, I'm gearing up for Comic Con, I want not to be fat.. so much more.

I need to finish up some paperwork so that I can get school completely behind me, degree in hand and on my way, don;t know maybe I should go back for the CBES, substitute teach? I have a room I rent now, furniture and everything... not sure, just feel like I'm floating, it's still all so new, and I have so much stuff to get rid of. Maybe I should ask for help but it seems like such trivial stuff, I just need to let go of my past, not like I liked it but if I let it go what do I have left?
I'm gearing up for Comic Con which means a new cosplay, should I do it? I mean it's going to cost, but it would be a real masterpiece, if I pull it off it means I have really made great leaps, I just need to find a lot of royal blue material. I want not to be fat anymore, not to feel fat, sluggish, bloted, slow, overweight, I want to feel that rush like I did when I first lost weight, sometimes it is so hard to keep up the will when you don't see anything happening. On top of that I have commission, when people don't put time limits on commissions for me it makes them so hard to complete, I get distracted, or I learn how to do it better then seeing my old work drives me nuts I just want to throw it away, or not do it at all because it's no longer my best. But I must, I know I must go through and finish all these little things so that I may proceed forward, and do better, and finish what I start.

So much to do, I'll get there